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How Self-Publishing on a Budget Made Me Write a Better Book

This entry is part [part not set] of 8 in the series Pub­lish­ing Goliath Fallen

I recent­ly real­ized that my post about find­ing an edi­tor for my nov­el, GOLIATH FALLEN, had skipped a cru­cial ele­ment of the jour­ney: the fact that self-pub­lish­ing on a bud­get helped me cut a third of my man­u­script, which, unex­pect­ed­ly, result­ed in a bet­ter book. 

Edi­tors com­mon­ly charge by page or word count. As a result, total edit­ing costs will depend on the length of the man­u­script. With my book clock­ing in at a whop­ping 92,500 words, I’m fac­ing edit­ing costs of $2,700 at a mod­est $0.03 per word. How­ev­er, my nov­el was­n’t always that length. It used to be a mind-bog­gling 150,000+ words. The new­ly reduced length was the result of a four-month rewrite cam­paign after real­iz­ing that hir­ing an edi­tor would have cost me a kid­ney. The cheap­est quote I received based on the orig­i­nal draft was $4,500. And if I want­ed devel­op­men­tal edit­ing, that would’ve run a whop­ping $9,000, which is triple my ini­tial esti­mate and sev­er­al months’ worth of rent where I live (Cos­ta Rica.)

I was between a rock and a hard place, and the only way out was a painful one. After six years of writ­ing and declar­ing my draft com­plete, I had no choice but to dive back in and “make it shorter.”

Pictured: me editing my manuscript during "The Big Rewrite."
Pic­tured: me edit­ing my book dur­ing “The Big Rewrite.”

Finishing the book is only the beginning

“Make it short­er” sounds like a vague, unac­tion­able thing a pub­lish­er would tell you after review­ing the phone book you just wrote. It leaves you with absolute­ly no clue where to start. It’s a frus­trat­ing real­iza­tion to have after you fin­ish writ­ing your book. Real­is­ti­cal­ly speak­ing, how­ev­er, a debut nov­el of such dimen­sions also has an abysmal chance of get­ting pub­lished. I might also seem like I’m self-pub­lish­ing because no agents would take my nov­el. I haven’t seri­ous­ly queried this book yet, so I can’t say that’s the case.

Some fel­low writ­ers might relate to my plight here. I was forced to revis­it the beloved man­u­script I had been writ­ing for years and trim not only a few sen­tences but cut entire scenes, reor­ga­nize or remove chap­ters, or even take out char­ac­ters com­plete­ly. They said self-pub­lish­ing on a bud­get was hard, but this was sim­ply soul-crushing.

Pic­ture me sit­ting at my desk, hands on my head, look­ing down in despair, sweat­ing from this dread­ful real­iza­tion, and try­ing to find a way out of this inescapable abyss. Dra­mat­ic? Yes. Accu­rate? Also yes. I had been writ­ing for so long and was so excit­ed to get this book out. But now, how long would it be before it’s tru­ly ready?

Tough feedback is the best kind of feedback

One day, I shared this real­iza­tion that my book need­ed trim­ming with one of my most trust­ed beta read­ers. As it turns out, she already had the same con­sid­er­a­tion, but it was hard for her to put it into con­cise, action­able feed­back. One point she men­tioned was my overuse of char­ac­ter reac­tions between dia­logue. After some self-intro­spec­tion, I real­ized I do this uncon­scious­ly because I write as if I was watch­ing a movie. This beta read­er hint­ed that I could eas­i­ly remove all that fluff with­out alter­ing the end prod­uct. I re-read the first chap­ters to con­firm her real­iza­tion and found plen­ty of pas­sages like the following:

“Is… is that it?” Casper stut­tered.
Vik­tor could almost hear the rusty cogs of his brain crunch­ing, pro­cess­ing the sit­u­a­tion. A sen­tence left his mouth by its own will: “Go. Wake up the others.”

That pas­sage is way longer than it needs to be. It’s rid­dled with descrip­tions that don’t add enough to jus­ti­fy their exis­tence. Instead, it could be eas­i­ly rewrit­ten to some­thing like:

“Is—is that it?” Casper said.
Vik­tor froze, his mind rac­ing. “Go. Wake up the others.”

This revised pas­sage is clean­er, crisper, and about 20 words few­er. With a few sim­ple changes, it’s easy to see how I could work my way through my man­u­script to trim the edges with­out los­ing integrity.

Around the time my man­u­script was avail­able to beta read­ers, I also received crit­i­cal feed­back from my peers at the NYC Writ­ers Cri­tique Group. Specif­i­cal­ly, one mem­ber said, “I’m 30,000 words in, and not a lot has hap­pened”. I had­n’t under­stood what they meant ini­tial­ly, but they were right nonethe­less. This real­iza­tion was a big pill to swallow—a big pill of hard, cold truth. 

And so, with this fresh per­spec­tive, I sailed off into a long, long jour­ney. I start­ed by read­ing my entire man­u­script yet again. But this time, I read it not as a writer but as a read­er. My fel­low writ­ers know how hard it is to swap your frame of ref­er­ence like that. How do you detach from your cre­ation in order to objec­tive­ly read it like just anoth­er book? For me, it was a three-step process:

  1. Put the book away for a month.
  2. Re-read the entire book, but force myself not to edit a sin­gle word.
  3. Put the book away for anoth­er month.

The sec­ond step is the def­i­n­i­tion of tor­ture. If I had read my book right from the word edi­tor, I don’t think I could’ve resist­ed the temp­ta­tion to edit it. With this in mind, I export­ed it as a PDF so that I could­n’t edit it but could add com­ments in bouts of weakness.

How self-publishing on a budget improved my manuscript

On that last read-through of my book, my fresh eyes did­n’t only catch an exor­bi­tant amount of fluff but they also dis­cov­ered plen­ty of unnec­es­sary descrip­tions, triv­ial dia­logue, and scenes that need­ed to either be trimmed or cut out alto­geth­er. Not even two chap­ters in, I start­ed get­ting “writer’s itch,” or that uncon­trol­lable urge to get down to edit­ing. I cursed that pesky, read-only PDF more times than I could count. But once I was done read­ing, I stuck to the plan and put my book away before a mon­th’s long vaca­tion in order to detox.

When the time came to get back to work, that last edit­ing pass turned into a full rewrite as my hun­dreds of com­ments in the PDF had fore­cast­ed. It took three months to parse through the entire text, and by the end, my man­u­script was an entire­ly dif­fer­ent beast (and 58,000 words lean­er). The pac­ing of the nar­ra­tive ben­e­fit­ed the most from this, result­ing in bet­ter tran­si­tions between dia­logue and action scenes. My proud­est moment was prun­ing the intro­duc­to­ry arc to four chap­ters instead of five, or 8,600 words instead of 18,000. It’s sup­posed to be an intro­duc­to­ry arc, not a novella.

Final thoughts

After star­ing down the bar­rel of thou­sands of dol­lars in poten­tial edit­ing costs, I was forced to take a sec­ond look at my debut nov­el. Armed with crit­i­cal feed­back from read­ers and fel­low writ­ers, I embarked on a four-month-long jour­ney deep into my char­ac­ters, plot­line, and chap­ters. Despite the ini­tial despair and frus­tra­tion, every­thing turned out well in the end. The fact that my lim­it­ed bud­get helped me not only save on the costs of an edi­tor, but I also was able to shave unnec­es­sary fluff from begin­ning to end, result­ing in an over­all clean­er, stream­lined nov­el. I could­n’t help but chuck­le at the irony that self-pub­lish­ing on a bud­get actu­al­ly led me to write a bet­ter book.

If you’re a writer, I hope my per­ils made you feel a lit­tle less alone in the mis­ery that can some­times accom­pa­ny edit­ing your own self-pub­lished book. If you’re just a read­er, well, per­haps you enjoyed a lit­tle bit of schaden­freude after read­ing my experience.

Please feel free to share your own self-edit­ing expe­ri­ences in the com­ments below. Have you ever had a real­iza­tion in the late stages of edit­ing that almost made you quit writ­ing? How did you over­come it?

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